I am in menopause.
I don't know whether to laugh or cry but at least now I know why i have been going all crazy.
everything else is okay but I do need to move my ass a bit more and get my pulse down.
wow. I knew this was happening but now it's official it makes me a bit sad. 41 is a bit young for this.
well it could be worse.
until then, be excellent to each other
Tuesday, 29 May 2007
Monday, 28 May 2007
bad girl
yeah yeah, I know no updates no nuthin...
sorry, been travelling, been sick and mostly had not a lot to say...
home now, it's bucketing which is grand for the garden and tomorrow I get all my test results back...am a wee itty bitty nervous. Prolly have super high cholesterol. argh!
not much else to babble about.
maybe be more verbose later on.
still just saying hi!
Until then, be excellent to each other.
oh yeah, I joined facebook - how addictive is that thing then!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry, been travelling, been sick and mostly had not a lot to say...
home now, it's bucketing which is grand for the garden and tomorrow I get all my test results back...am a wee itty bitty nervous. Prolly have super high cholesterol. argh!
not much else to babble about.
maybe be more verbose later on.
still just saying hi!
Until then, be excellent to each other.
oh yeah, I joined facebook - how addictive is that thing then!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, 16 May 2007
the ups and downs of being me
So, yesterday I had my ECG. I waited almost an hour for about 3 minutes worth of test. It was okay thoughthat hour allowed me to calm down from my usual manic nervous state I always seem to find myself in when I go to the doctor's. I got a look at the results and from what i coudl see everything looked just fine. I remember loving studying ecg stuff when I studied animal medicine. My heart beat was regluar with no apparant weirdness. I will get the full results on the 29th.
I feel a lot calmer about it all now though. I am late for my period and all the symptoms I experience are definately on the 34 symptoms for perimenopaus. Fun. My allergies have calmed down except the itchy eyes which are driving my bonkers. It doesn't help that today in difference to yesterday it is very dry, incredibly sunny and windy with Nordföhn. A warm dry wind that brings all kinds of allgery much with it as it sweeps down off the Alps. - oh joy-
I am working on two scrolls at moment. One is based on the Grande Heurs of jean duc de berry- it's big with a shit load of gold work and billions on teeny weeny leaves and flowers. and the other is based loosely on a 'squashed bug' style. It's very ... well.. loud. And it's is more complicated than I would have liked. It is the first time I have done one of these so it is a huge learning curve for me. I have third large scroll on my plate but I am still trying to decide what to do for it. I am going to drag my scribal stuff up to Germany this time around so I can do some work in the hotel. I feel like I am running out of time but of course that is not really the case.
For those of you reading DOTE: The writing has taken a back bench atm. I can't stare at the computer screen too long and up until last week the allergies made it hard to even sit long. But I have been writing down snips and snaps in my note book for when the time comes to sit and write for real. I decided I really needed a bit of a break. I wrote book 1 and 2 basically back to back. The ideas are there and while book3 is pretty much bare bones ideas, I know where I am going with it. the plan is to start publishing again in August.
Not much else. It looks like we may get our new car today! - how very exciting though a bit sad too. Our Opel Astra has been a good car. It only broke down once in 10 years. In it we have driven all over europe. To sweden, to Czech, to italy, to holland, denmark, all over germany, through switzerland, Austria and there is a lot of history in this car. I am glad I will not be there when Marcus hands over the keys, I would cry a little bit. Funny how I tend to ascribe human feelings to an inanimate object. Hopefully the new car will be as reliable. She is also an Opel Astra.
Anyway, that is it for me. Doing some laundry because while the föhn winds are sucky for allergies it does mean laundry dries in record times! Gotta take advantage of this.
Back to the painting !!
Until then, be excellent to each other!
I feel a lot calmer about it all now though. I am late for my period and all the symptoms I experience are definately on the 34 symptoms for perimenopaus. Fun. My allergies have calmed down except the itchy eyes which are driving my bonkers. It doesn't help that today in difference to yesterday it is very dry, incredibly sunny and windy with Nordföhn. A warm dry wind that brings all kinds of allgery much with it as it sweeps down off the Alps. - oh joy-
I am working on two scrolls at moment. One is based on the Grande Heurs of jean duc de berry- it's big with a shit load of gold work and billions on teeny weeny leaves and flowers. and the other is based loosely on a 'squashed bug' style. It's very ... well.. loud. And it's is more complicated than I would have liked. It is the first time I have done one of these so it is a huge learning curve for me. I have third large scroll on my plate but I am still trying to decide what to do for it. I am going to drag my scribal stuff up to Germany this time around so I can do some work in the hotel. I feel like I am running out of time but of course that is not really the case.
For those of you reading DOTE: The writing has taken a back bench atm. I can't stare at the computer screen too long and up until last week the allergies made it hard to even sit long. But I have been writing down snips and snaps in my note book for when the time comes to sit and write for real. I decided I really needed a bit of a break. I wrote book 1 and 2 basically back to back. The ideas are there and while book3 is pretty much bare bones ideas, I know where I am going with it. the plan is to start publishing again in August.
Not much else. It looks like we may get our new car today! - how very exciting though a bit sad too. Our Opel Astra has been a good car. It only broke down once in 10 years. In it we have driven all over europe. To sweden, to Czech, to italy, to holland, denmark, all over germany, through switzerland, Austria and there is a lot of history in this car. I am glad I will not be there when Marcus hands over the keys, I would cry a little bit. Funny how I tend to ascribe human feelings to an inanimate object. Hopefully the new car will be as reliable. She is also an Opel Astra.
Anyway, that is it for me. Doing some laundry because while the föhn winds are sucky for allergies it does mean laundry dries in record times! Gotta take advantage of this.
Back to the painting !!
Until then, be excellent to each other!
Sunday, 13 May 2007
reliving the past - time travel at its best!
When I was a child and we lived in Scotland Saturdays were ruled by Doctor Who. I loved Doctor Who.
The first Doctor I recall was John Pertwee. He was magnificent and I adored him so when he 'died' and regenerated into Tom Baker who was at first very different I wasn't happy. However it didn't take log for Tom Baker to win over my heart and become 'the Doctor! Jellybaby anyone?
When we left Scotland for Canada we left Doctor Who behind because CBC didn't carry it and CBC was all we had.
Now some genius has brought the Doctor back. I am thrilled because it is everything I loved and more.
I just thought I would share about this show because it rocks. Now I want to collect all the dvds and rewatch the campy excellent shows that I loved as a child.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/doctorwho/
The first Doctor I recall was John Pertwee. He was magnificent and I adored him so when he 'died' and regenerated into Tom Baker who was at first very different I wasn't happy. However it didn't take log for Tom Baker to win over my heart and become 'the Doctor! Jellybaby anyone?
When we left Scotland for Canada we left Doctor Who behind because CBC didn't carry it and CBC was all we had.
Now some genius has brought the Doctor back. I am thrilled because it is everything I loved and more.
I just thought I would share about this show because it rocks. Now I want to collect all the dvds and rewatch the campy excellent shows that I loved as a child.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/doctorwho/
Thursday, 10 May 2007
Sunday, 6 May 2007
Stuff
So it stopped raining. It rained for three days straight and today it stopped. Rain is good and the garden needed it. Funny thing is we have had such hot dry temperatures for most of April now May is turning outto be colder than average and wet. We had to put the heating back on.
The bad thing about the weather is bored inlaws. And I am not a good entertainer of people. Having been on my own ( with Marcus) but duringthe days on my own I have become a fairly anti social solitary creature so having two extra folks in the house that require my attention is an interesting experience to say the least. I don't quite know what to do and I feel bad if they are not happy, but even I cannot change the weather.
Still all in all the visit has been nice so far. It's just a difficult adjustment for me sometimes. Plus I am sooooo pmsy it's not funny. This includes the full meal deal, headaches, back aches, funky heart beats and blood pressure ups and downs. Gotta love the hormone dance.
On a good note the roses in the garden are all more or less doing good. The ones we moved seemed to have survived the move okay and are beginning to get back to the business of growing. The ones that are established are blooming like crazy, much to the envy of my father in law. The roses love the soil down here and it seems they love the garden mostly as well. So lots of buds and blooms which is just gorgeous to look at.
Not sure what is on the agenda today. If the pms headache will go away that would be great and maybe I can get back to some semblance of feeling normal once I get my period - yippie!!!-The allergies have all calmed down a bit thanks to the cool and damp weather. This is a good thing.
The scrolls are coming along nicely. I got all the gilding done and have now started on the painting part which is for me the fun part. Will post images after the event.
apart from that not much to tell.
life toodles along... you know how it goes.
until then, be excellent to each other.
The bad thing about the weather is bored inlaws. And I am not a good entertainer of people. Having been on my own ( with Marcus) but duringthe days on my own I have become a fairly anti social solitary creature so having two extra folks in the house that require my attention is an interesting experience to say the least. I don't quite know what to do and I feel bad if they are not happy, but even I cannot change the weather.
Still all in all the visit has been nice so far. It's just a difficult adjustment for me sometimes. Plus I am sooooo pmsy it's not funny. This includes the full meal deal, headaches, back aches, funky heart beats and blood pressure ups and downs. Gotta love the hormone dance.
On a good note the roses in the garden are all more or less doing good. The ones we moved seemed to have survived the move okay and are beginning to get back to the business of growing. The ones that are established are blooming like crazy, much to the envy of my father in law. The roses love the soil down here and it seems they love the garden mostly as well. So lots of buds and blooms which is just gorgeous to look at.
Not sure what is on the agenda today. If the pms headache will go away that would be great and maybe I can get back to some semblance of feeling normal once I get my period - yippie!!!-The allergies have all calmed down a bit thanks to the cool and damp weather. This is a good thing.
The scrolls are coming along nicely. I got all the gilding done and have now started on the painting part which is for me the fun part. Will post images after the event.
apart from that not much to tell.
life toodles along... you know how it goes.
until then, be excellent to each other.
Wednesday, 2 May 2007
Whine without cheese
Update - okay so it's pouring outside ( happy dance of joy) and the allergies have calmed down nicely and I have stopped whining.
Feel totally free to utterly ignore the following, I wrote it early this morning when I felt like crap!
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I am exhausted.
It's been two weeks straight of seriously sucky serio9usly unmanageable hayfever and I am just exhausted. My standard antihistemines take the slight edge off it but really don't actually do a lot. I ran out of the Boiron hayfever homeopathic pellet things and trying to find replecements here is a real chore. Inbetween this are the rest of the stupid issues that keep cropping up in my life, the peri menopause stuff, the screwed up wrist stuff and a bunch of other little things that are just pissing me off.
>:-( <---- this is me annoyed at me!
It's exhausting being unwell in small but constant ways, but allergy / hayfever is the suckiest and so here I am whining about it. - whine-
well I know I am being a moaning mope so ... feel free to ignore,this is just me blowing off steam about shit I can't control much. It would be better if I wasn't being woken up at 3am with the desperate desire to sneeze my frigging face off. Ugh!
My inlaws come today to stay till Monday and while I adore them I am just too tired to deal with a visit today so I am hoping to nap before they show so I will be more sociable. Tired, pmsy, blah!
(NB: I am thrilled to see them though and it will be nice!)
I hope it rains today like the weather dudes keep promising because that will take the sting out of the allergies.
Still, we got the house looking nice and tidy. mostly except the den which always looks fairly pit like, but that's the room we tend to live in. On sat we bought a new dvt box the old one just decided to die so we are once again back in TV land ( 4 channels) but at least M's dad can watch the news in german now.
The wrist thing is slowly getting better but it still twinges and hurts, don't want to push it. The rollerblade brace helps but it isn't all that comfortable for long term wear which means trying to find something more appropriate here in middle of nowhere land. *sigh*.
I'd find some sort of up note to end this whinge fest on but I can't. I'm tired and cranky and the computer keeps crashing. I have two big scrolls I need to get done and I am running out of time.
So.. the solution is a nice long soak in the tub before the inlaws come and take over our bedroom with the main bathroom .
until then , be excellent to each other.
Feel totally free to utterly ignore the following, I wrote it early this morning when I felt like crap!
---
I am exhausted.
It's been two weeks straight of seriously sucky serio9usly unmanageable hayfever and I am just exhausted. My standard antihistemines take the slight edge off it but really don't actually do a lot. I ran out of the Boiron hayfever homeopathic pellet things and trying to find replecements here is a real chore. Inbetween this are the rest of the stupid issues that keep cropping up in my life, the peri menopause stuff, the screwed up wrist stuff and a bunch of other little things that are just pissing me off.
>:-( <---- this is me annoyed at me!
It's exhausting being unwell in small but constant ways, but allergy / hayfever is the suckiest and so here I am whining about it. - whine-
well I know I am being a moaning mope so ... feel free to ignore,this is just me blowing off steam about shit I can't control much. It would be better if I wasn't being woken up at 3am with the desperate desire to sneeze my frigging face off. Ugh!
My inlaws come today to stay till Monday and while I adore them I am just too tired to deal with a visit today so I am hoping to nap before they show so I will be more sociable. Tired, pmsy, blah!
(NB: I am thrilled to see them though and it will be nice!)
I hope it rains today like the weather dudes keep promising because that will take the sting out of the allergies.
Still, we got the house looking nice and tidy. mostly except the den which always looks fairly pit like, but that's the room we tend to live in. On sat we bought a new dvt box the old one just decided to die so we are once again back in TV land ( 4 channels) but at least M's dad can watch the news in german now.
The wrist thing is slowly getting better but it still twinges and hurts, don't want to push it. The rollerblade brace helps but it isn't all that comfortable for long term wear which means trying to find something more appropriate here in middle of nowhere land. *sigh*.
I'd find some sort of up note to end this whinge fest on but I can't. I'm tired and cranky and the computer keeps crashing. I have two big scrolls I need to get done and I am running out of time.
So.. the solution is a nice long soak in the tub before the inlaws come and take over our bedroom with the main bathroom .
until then , be excellent to each other.
Tuesday, 1 May 2007
You did what...how?????
okay, so i am typing this one handed. yep sans caps because that requires two hands or my nose. Monday saw me gilding two huge sca scrolls that i have for coronation, lots of gold work. i have a love hate relatioship with gilding and gold, as do, i suspect most scribes.
anyway... i spent many - around 4- straight hours gilding and when i was too stiff and had to move i got up. about half an hour later i realised my left wrist ached... ow..
an hour later i realised it didn't just ache i had DONE something to it. oh boy have i done something to it. i can't frigging move it and slight twist ot flexing of fingers send shards of screaming needle like pain from wrist to elbow and back again. - bugger!
so...here i am typing with one hand, having to clean house for tomorrw's inlaws visit. how do i explain this to my gp-doc?
yeah doc, i sustained some sort of traumatic wrist injury gilding an sca scroll.... and they say scribing is a gentle art!
until then, be excellent to each other!
anyway... i spent many - around 4- straight hours gilding and when i was too stiff and had to move i got up. about half an hour later i realised my left wrist ached... ow..
an hour later i realised it didn't just ache i had DONE something to it. oh boy have i done something to it. i can't frigging move it and slight twist ot flexing of fingers send shards of screaming needle like pain from wrist to elbow and back again. - bugger!
so...here i am typing with one hand, having to clean house for tomorrw's inlaws visit. how do i explain this to my gp-doc?
yeah doc, i sustained some sort of traumatic wrist injury gilding an sca scroll.... and they say scribing is a gentle art!
until then, be excellent to each other!
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